My heart and mind is so confused right now.
My heart is still hung up on her, but my mind is telling me to move on to him. Yet I’m so scared that it’ll all just happen again. My heart isn’t only hung up on her, but tired of being torn into pieces by all the people that it chooses. And at the same time my mind is angry that my heart is letting it being torn into pieces. I’m mentally fighting my own self and I don’t know how to resolve it. What if I move on and follow my mind, but later on get hurt much more. When it comes to my heart I already know the consequences of staying with my feelings for her and that will just be constant hurt. Everyday I randomly would go blank looking for an answer to this battle within me, but fail to do so. It’s getting to me to the point that food and music is no longer an escape for my problems. It scares me and I always have this feeling of something bad will happen at anytime. I want to escape back into my dreams, but even in my dreams my problems haunt me. Is there a place where I can go physically or mentally to escape my problems even for a split second.
(Source: onehungrydino)
